Mood:Bent
Song of Choice:"Bent" by Matchbox 20
Topic:In Search of a Course of Action
no I was just really pissed off at my family m y birthday sucked and I'm mega bitter about every thing that has happened and what I've been forced to go through. Imiss you and Quita and my angel and Peter and everyone I just feel like geeze all this time spent getting to know people and fighting to open up to someone anyone has been a big fucking waste of time. I don'tknow I feel like and outkast and an outkast and an outsider and I haven't felt that way in a long time. And instead of like over in Columbus where even if people are real tight they offer a hand here people couldn't care less they've been together 3 years and their bonds are strong like mine where in Columbus. I'm a loner all over again but not my choice of Isolation just kinda deemed so by circumstance and it drives me wild. I want nothing more than to tell these people of what i've seen and what I know but my voice falls on deaf ears so it's not worth the effort.I'm sorry for rambeling games I'm gonna go now okay good night.
Kim
Geimer asked me if I was upset with him because while were we talking I know I must have seemed agitated and really it's just circumstances. I miss you guys....and sometimes I wonder if remaining the a keeper of sanctuary and thus a bringer of peace and wisedom is the best thing for me to do...I feel trapped and frusterated and I long to share a burden with someone but it's a burden I must carry alone it seems...trusting people and making friends has never been a strong point of mine and so I think it is time to go back to the old ways...silence and strength and no need of companions...it is something I have to decided and I don't know because the yearning to make a friend and to have someone to trust is driving me insane...I long for my sister Quita who I can tell anything to and she'll understand...I miss Peter who has always been a source of strenght for me I miss my angel who some how or oth thougher made me smile throught tears that he perhaps has caused. I miss him most because he is in my thoughts often and I am scared I'll never see him again. I hate this place so much right now and it angers me more that I can't express it in any way....I'm so confused...
Song of Choice:"Bent" by Matchbox 20
Topic:In Search of a Course of Action
no I was just really pissed off at my family m y birthday sucked and I'm mega bitter about every thing that has happened and what I've been forced to go through. Imiss you and Quita and my angel and Peter and everyone I just feel like geeze all this time spent getting to know people and fighting to open up to someone anyone has been a big fucking waste of time. I don'tknow I feel like and outkast and an outkast and an outsider and I haven't felt that way in a long time. And instead of like over in Columbus where even if people are real tight they offer a hand here people couldn't care less they've been together 3 years and their bonds are strong like mine where in Columbus. I'm a loner all over again but not my choice of Isolation just kinda deemed so by circumstance and it drives me wild. I want nothing more than to tell these people of what i've seen and what I know but my voice falls on deaf ears so it's not worth the effort.I'm sorry for rambeling games I'm gonna go now okay good night.
Kim
Geimer asked me if I was upset with him because while were we talking I know I must have seemed agitated and really it's just circumstances. I miss you guys....and sometimes I wonder if remaining the a keeper of sanctuary and thus a bringer of peace and wisedom is the best thing for me to do...I feel trapped and frusterated and I long to share a burden with someone but it's a burden I must carry alone it seems...trusting people and making friends has never been a strong point of mine and so I think it is time to go back to the old ways...silence and strength and no need of companions...it is something I have to decided and I don't know because the yearning to make a friend and to have someone to trust is driving me insane...I long for my sister Quita who I can tell anything to and she'll understand...I miss Peter who has always been a source of strenght for me I miss my angel who some how or oth thougher made me smile throught tears that he perhaps has caused. I miss him most because he is in my thoughts often and I am scared I'll never see him again. I hate this place so much right now and it angers me more that I can't express it in any way....I'm so confused...
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